08/01/13Madness is taking control of me. I just can't go forward anymore. I don't know what to tell except that everything is going fine to my parents, that I am moving to my friends, that nothing is disturbing me to my flatmates. This is just lying. I am lying to my parents because they are doing their best for me and finally I end up spending my days smelling like weed to go to work, to uni, because one of my flatmate is always smoking in the flat. I can't stand these long 1h15 journey one way to university or to work everyday. I can hardly pay for my monthly bus pass and I don't eat anymore just telling everyone that it is because I lack of time but I actually lack of money.. I can't even go to shop nearby to buy hygienic towels because it's too expensive .. I really don't know where I am going too right now .. my parents send me £820 for this everyday shit.