Since early age I always felt broken and aside because I could not recognise myself within some worlds I lived in.
Even though I received a Western education, again, at the end of the day, there are cultural ways of interacting that you just pick up, assimilate and reproduce.
For a long time I thought I was a-cultured, with no culture, from no culture, too different from one or the other. So far with much deeper reflections, I understand that I am not a-cultured, maybe I grew up in a world that was too different from what was truly familiar to me, what I decided to be familiar to me and that I could not accept its constitution.
That's about it.