'too foreign for home, for here..'
there's still somewhere, somewhere in the world where you will fit. Identity has been a massive journey for me, probably will continue to be one. From Algeria, Germany, France, stepping my feet in Morocco, a land that shaped who I am now. Discovering all the sides of the family, what happened in Algeria and how 1962 happened to be, happened to create me. I am currently experimenting a new stage of my journey through identity. I feel its importance deeply, the more I discover about where I am from, the more I get to understand who I am in terms of ideals, beliefs, behaviour, organisation, things I am striving for, where I feel well. Where in the world do I feel well enough to escape, where in the world my creativity is boosted, where in the world I know who to trust, who to follow.
When in philosophy class, we discussed the notion of happiness. What truly is happiness. I would like to go back in time and add to the essay the new experiences to my argument. Indeed the happiness does not lie in the object of our dreams, in the little things we buy everyday, but in the experience of reaching the goal. But, what do we do after reaching the goal - we moveon to something else. This thing has been achieved, it cannot make us happy anymore. In my life experiences, even though I reflect a lot about the past and the future, I am fully immersed in the now, in the current feelings and aware of this as much as I can project myself in a different dimension. This actually gave me the opportunity to face the struggles through obstacles on the way. Because I am so immersed in the now, when I feel the happiness within I can just go back to the exact emotions of the past time, feel the same excitement, even greater, remember a specific voice, a certain gesture, that just make me travel back on the path of seeking this goal. My source of happiness in not the goal, it is part of the experience, but it is also part of what comes after, the synergy of both, not just one without the other, these moments are intertwined.